American Beauty, 1999

< American Beauty, 1999 >

I had always heard your entire life flahes in front of eyes
the second before you die.

First of all, that one second isn't a second at all.
It stretches on forever, like an ocean of time.

For me, it was lying on may back...
At boy csout camp, watching falling stars.
And yellow leaves from the maple trees that lined our street.
Or my grandmother's hands and the way her skin seem like paper.
And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand-new Firebird.

And janie, and janie.
And... Carolyn..

I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me,
but it's grad to stay mad
when there's so much beauty in the world.
Sometime I feel like I'm seeing it all at once and it's too much.
My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst.

And then I remember to relax...and stop trying to hold on to it
and then it flows through me like rain,
and I can't feel anything but gratitude..
for every single moment of my stupid little life.